So its been a while since I've posted anything.  Sad thing is, nothing really exciting has happened in that time.  Either nothing exciting has happened or I just cant remember anything, either way, shit is sad.  I was unemployed for about a month and a half, and that was a long ass month and a half.  Nothing sucks ass more than having absolutely nothing to do.  I was all restless for that month and a half.  But now I just started on my new job as a marketing associate for cip (adidas), and so hopefully that should be interesting. 

You know, I read the Da Vinci Code, and most likely am going to see the movie.  There's been a big ruckus going on with the Christian community, condemning this movie as being heretical and a hoax. The Catholic Church is claiming that the book is full of inaccuracies, and that it's just a story, and are now trying to counter the book with their own documentaries and such.  I think it's rather ironic that an entire faith that's based a lot of their teachings on THE BOOK, would point out that even though something may seem factual, it is fiction.  Kind of relays how I feel about the fucking BIBLE, haha.  I mean, if you think about it, both the Bible and The Da Vinci Code were written by men, and both seem to incorporate a lot of history and "fact" into them.  Now I'm not disputing that the Da Vinci Code is fiction, there's no doubt that it is.  But do people ever stop and wonder if the same could be true for the Bible?  I mean, if you think about it really, it wouldn't be that hard to believe.  Before the invention of the printing press, very few people could read, and it was only mainly the members of the clergy who could.  They would read from the Bible to their congregation, and make interpretations on what was trying to be said.  So, it would be very easy for these people to twist whatever was written into the Bible.  And was Jesus not a man?  He had to be, or else there would be no way for him to fucking die.  He is the supposed son of God, but was he not in human form while on Earth?  If he was, wouldn't he experience the same desires and wants of normal men?  I know Christians would contend that he would not experience the same feelings, since he is the Son of God incarnate in the flesh only or some bullshit like that, but how does anyone know?  It's not that hard to believe that he got morning wood too, and as a result of that, wanted to bone some bitches.  

What really grinds my gears though is white collar crime.  I was looking over reported earnings of CEO's these days, and its fucking INFURIATING to hear that they embezzle or financially mismanage funds to their benefit.  The highest paid CEO in 2005, Ray Irani (Occidental Petroleum, no fucking surprise that its a company dealing with oil) made $63.1 million.  I don't know what Ken Lay and those fuckers at Enron made, but I'm guessing its somewhat comprable.  But, it was reported that Lay sold his $70 million in stock shares, and tried to explain his behavior by pointing out that his "very expensive lifestyle..... that's difficult to turn on and off like a spigot."  Man, all I have to say to that is FUCK YOU.  You try to justify you screwing countless people out of all their savings because you didn't want to switch out of your "very expensive lifestyle".  What the fuck man.  That's like saying, "Yeah, I didn't wanna rob the homeless guy out of his daily panhandlings, but you know what, fuck it, I'm a heartless dick."  The worst part of it is that he'll get a slap on the wrist.  The judge will wag a finger at him, speak in a condescending tone, and that will be about that.  He might get at the most 5 years in a medium security jail, but thats about it.  It seems so moronic that we punish these white collar crimes a lot less severely as violent crime.  I mean, sure, the occurence of white collar crime is not as high as your average, run of the mill back alley street mugging, but the consequences are far greater and they affect exponentially greater amounts of people.  I would rather be robbed of what I have on me that day, then be bent over and fucked out of my life savings.  And thats what these fucking bastards did to their shareholders.  They have million dollar salaries, but its never enough for these greedy fucks.  I'm not exactly sure how accurate this little factoid is (I got it from a Lewis Black standup show), but the CEO of Adelphia used part of the money that he embezzled to build himself a golf course in his backyard and bought a fucking 24k gold umbrella stand, which was reported at being $50k.  Who the fuck needs a gold fucking umbrella holder?  The amount of excess these guys "need" is just simply fucking ridiculous.  Fuck you Whitey.

Another thing that I'm burning on is our government.  Theres no fucking accountability for anything.  There are conflicting reports that are given to the American people by our government, but we don't call them out on their bullshit.  I was watching the Daily Show the other night, and there was a segment on all the contradicting statements made by Bush and his government.  I do realize it is the Daily Show, so there is a little bit of bias and a whole lot of spin, and maybe some statements taken out of context.  But the fact is, that it seems as the Bush administration is just telling us whatever the fuck they think we need to hear.  Is it any wonder why so many of Bush's top advisors have resigned recently?  I guess you can only bullshit for so long before your conscious finally kicks you in the ass.   It's also no small fucking wonder that the Bush administration has repeatedly told us that we don't need to change our lifestlyes and gas consumption, despite the dangers of oil shortage that started to loom a few years ago.  Let's think about it, what did Bush do before he became President?  He worked for oil companies, as did Big Bush.  Might it be advantageous to the Bushes if the message that everything is alright, and despite the $50 dollars it takes to fill up my car now (when it was like $35 before), everything is okay.  Maybe?  Oh, but our government loves to spin everything to a positive light. 

"President Bush's aides contend that the pain at the pump actually proves that the economy is doing well.  They argue that if the economy were performing badly - as, for instance, in the 1970s - soaring gas costs would have sent it into a tailspin."

So don't worry America, we'll be okay.  As long as gas prices continue to rise, and as long as we keep buying because we pretty have no fucking choice, its a sign of the resilience of the American economy............  I smell bullshit.  I mean, how can oil companies report an excessive earning, millions over what should be the norm, and expect us to be fine with paying over three dollars a gallon and not expect us to be slightly perturbed. 

So i was thinking the other night (yes, I still do think from time to time despite my activities), and I was thinking, what is it with people who are so determined to be happy?  I believe that our country is the only country where the pursuit of happiness is guarenteed by law (Constitution, whatever), but it just seems like there are a lot of miserable people out there who like to bitch about how the shits hitting the fan, and they never really go pursue it.  I know I'm one of them, but I've never sought out happiness, it kinda finds me at a very few specific moments.  But I just say, live your life bitches.  When life hands you lemons, make some motherfucking lemonade, and all the other trite sayings.  And I also hate people who are never content.  It's like they got the most shit, and yet they bitch the most.  Those people that live in a bubble and don't realize what the fuck else is going on.  I don't watch CNN, but I'm pretty sure a lot of you fuckers are better off than the rest of the world; so don't cry, work out. 

I was also thinking how time has just passed me by, how I've become a spectator to my own life.  It's pretty fucking amazing that I'll be going into my fourth year of college, I feel so fucking old.  I remember just starting up on xanga my first year of college, and its been 3 fucking years.  I went over a few of my entries from that time, and its pretty ridiculous how immature I was.  I didn't have a care in the world, I was just happy to be free to do as I pleased (and that didn't really work out for the best).  But now, I'm shitting it.  I've got fucking white hairs now over all the stress about what the fuck I'm going to do with myself and my life, and on top of that, I have to find a new fucking job.  All these things would make a lesser man cry, but I still find myself smiling at the little things. 

And happy birthday America.  Be merry and smile bitches, its going to be alright.

So I been working at this vet place for over a month now, and its so fucking boring.  I don't do shit here, except play some games, go online, and do some homework.  One thing that bugs the shit outta me though, is the dance studio next door.  Always bumping this gay ass music.  They have been playing 50 Cent's/The Game's "This is How We Do".  First of all, the students at the studio are like ........ 7 year old girls........  So no, that's not how you do, especially not in Irvine you privileged bitches.  And what makes it worse, besides the repeat play of the chorus over and fucking over, is the fucking flamer dance teacher.  I can hear him yelling the chorus in this gay ass lisp.  It was funny the first 50 times, now, not so much.

Do you ever find yourself smiling randomly at some fucked up shit you're thinking in your head?   


No?


Just me?